Divorce sucks

I think everyone everywhere can agree to the statement in the title. It is horrible to go through. Even though I initiated it I still feel horrible. I just dont understand though how someone who says they love you could not want you to be happy no matter what, and more so wants to go out of their way to make life difficult for you because you dont want to live life unhappy. If she came to me and said that she feels she would be happier with a different life I would be sad but I would want nothing more than for her to persue her happiness with or without me. She doesnt see it that way. She said she will be making my life as difficult as possible. I explained that it has nothing to do with the wife she was or how she is as a person. That is the truth too. As a partner she was great, I have just felt the loss of a connection and I wont be happy if I continue this marriage. It really sucks but it has to be done. I just cant believe now she just wants to hurt me and make things difficult. Its insane it really is. Life will go on and truthfully nothing anyone can do will hurt me too much. I would just like to make this easy and quick which is possible but she is not going to let that happen. No one reads this but if anyone does for some reason, and advice would be great. Thanks