Who is who in this fucking place?

So many fucking people have so many different opinions. I really just wish I could just disappear sometimes. Just walk into a crowd and no one ever find me. Maybe I would live out my days alone and in a foreign place, but how fucking cool would that be? I think I don't feel right today. I didn't feel right when I woke up. I never do until I get a few beers down and just chill out. I am always so on edge. I don't care what people think, but it that really so true about myself? Like Most people can fuck off, but I still crave acceptance. I get worried about my drinking. Why do I need liquor to make it alright, yet I do. I just wish I could dissapear. I find these peole though everyday who support me. Support what I do, support the asshole I am. Maybe they are bad people, but I like to believe they are the greatest ones who ever lived. They allow me to be a complete dick, and love me to spite it.